amber benson for president

bored on a sunday afternoon. i had plans to go to target but when i sat down and wrote my list (yes i'm nerd who lists) nothing needed came to mind. a few things but nothing worth me getting out of my cozy a/c'd apt. that's what after work is for. my boredom's been killed by the one and only ms amber benson.

i am in awe of this woman. not only is she a gifted actress, she is a writer/director/producer/singer. she brings a smile to my face and more importantly inspiration. nothing is sexier and more appealing than a strong female not afraid to go out and conquer every medium she steps foot in. just reading about her exploits makes me giddy with positivity and helps me face my mundane life. life shouldn't be just about existing and taking up space/breathing oxygen. it needs/should be about finding what i'm meant to do and do it. herein lies my problem. i'll be 30 next year (gasp!) and i've yet to make my mark in the world. what is tangible and what i know is that my brain is not being stimulated currently. i don't need to write the next great american novel but i'd love to be involved in below the radar writing/indie filming. i'd like to play the role of starving artist. i'd like to do what i'm passionate about. i'd like to surround myself with like-minded people and feed off each other's energy and drive. this is why i cannot/will not continue in my present csr job much longer. it is literally killing me. my brain goes numb; indifference and hatred take over like a cancer. before my brain is lost, i will remove the malignant tumor. in its place will be joyful celebrations as my calling comes into focus. mmmm, ok so maybe i'm jumping the oh so big gun on this one but i am tired of being tired and bored. i'm going to check out some writing workshops for any crumbs i can eat up.