the quiet things that no one ever knows

finishing up week 3 of work. so far it's ok. it's better than ok cause we're still in training. once we get on the floor is when the real apathy kicks in. mmmm. apathy. served over a heaping helping of superiority complex and drizzled with self-conciousness makes for a delicioso aperitif. i'm trying to be positive as this job will be my flying buttress of support for sf. i'm in a rather blah mood at the moment. very blah. i started writing an email to h and just felt disillusionment and sadness guide my fingers to the words. i stopped before i got too sylvia plath-y so i decided to post here instead. finished watching the first season of doctor who on dvd courtesy of netflix. i love this show. i love the complexity/the simplicity allegory. who knew sci-fi could be so ballsy and fun? billie piper is quite an actress. from what i've read, she became famous early in life and was living the rock n' roll lifestyle before getting her act in order. i wish i was in the uk. london? nah, i'd prefer glasgow or edinburgh. still lusting over the scots accent.

i wanna do something with someone. i'm pleased as piss that i'm working cause at least i get out of the house and get to interact with others but so far have made no new friends. is it an impossibility to make friends after 25? yes, giles it is. friday nite is crushing. the anticipation of the weekend during the week helps me get thru the days but when friday arrives, the realization that the only thing that awaits me is 2 days of vegging in front of the telly sours my mood. c'est la vie, n'est-pas? my theories about jax were true. this is an odd-ball city complete with equally weird people. in a lot of ways it truly is a poor country city. in some ways it's just a sad, sad city. i can't let myself get too down. i guess i can go and do what i've been doing all summer. watch more buffy. i'm up to season 6. the dark season....so maybe watching buffy won't do too much to cheer me up but at least i'll be among friends.